My family was hit with grief last week, when we had to say goodbye to our darling boy, Timmy.
Timmy has been our springer spaniel love for the last 12.5 years. While we had dreaded him declining as he got older, he shocked us by slipping fast: He didn’t get blind or lame… no, our boy knew it was time to go… so he did.
And he left our hearts bleeding.
(I know I said in my last post that I would be writing about Understanding Spiritual Connection, but I figured some real time experiences of how spiritual awareness works, might be important for here. The planned post will be landing soon, so make sure you’ve subscribed to catch it!)
Grief isn’t an emotion, rather it’s a tunnel.
It’s a path you walk as your neural pathways and heart callings struggle to come to terms with the sudden change.
However, spiritual awareness is a profound companion while you walk that path.
Don’t get me wrong, the tunnel is often incredibly dark and the comfort of spiritual connection feels very, very far away.
It’s difficult to find communion with the divine in the tunnel of grief because it’s a human experience as your heart expresses it’s sadness around “never agains”.
But when you have practiced and developed your spiritual belief system, when you integrate spirituality and have dived into energetics, you can know that spirit is waiting just on the other side.
You can put attention on the eternal in all things.
For instance, as soon as he had transitioned in the vet office, I reminded my family that Timmy was still in the room, just not in his body.
I went to sit down in a chair and felt his familiar lean against my leg. He felt confused about our upset. My daughter then felt him as well, by the simple shift of attention. We both tapped into him coming home with us, and while our human hearts and minds were grieving, we also knew we had to adjust to this next stage.
We also had to help our Timmy adjust as well.
While my daughter went to see her boyfriend, she continually felt him over the following few days. It felt like he’d been eager to go down to the seaside where her boyfriend lives, and was happy to finally be seeing what they were up to. (Not gonna lie… she did say it felt a little intimidating!)
Then, he’d come back home, we’d feel him around at dinner, and up on the bed at night.
Creating the back and forth juggle between spiritual awareness and human reaction is what matters in so much of this.
I’ve had so many human moments these past few days.
Funnily enough my clients had to reschedule on Friday, so I felt like the universe had my back, as I had shed enough tears to dehydrate me for the year.
I witnessed as my brain had to adjust to him not needing feeding, or walking, or attention. I felt as my heart long and ache with the lack of cuddles or loving looks.
Each Energetic World within me has to process all of this differently.
A client reached out to me today to share her condolences. She then commented saying:
“But in these times you never just say ‘What’s the point of life?’”
And I said no, I don’t…
Because this is the point of life.
We love, we grieve and hurt. We also feel joy, and laughter, and bliss, as we journey the ride.
We come as a human, and it can be messy and painful, but glorious and expansive.
None of us get out of this alive.
Everything that is born, transitions to something else.
The point of life is to love, to be love and to be loved… isn’t it?
So therefore, we occasionally walk the path of grief and as we do so, we know that love will guide and support us every step of the way.